Losing Him

I look at him, he looks through me
Why is it that he's all I see
I need to move on, get on with my life
But losing him was like being stabbed with a knife
He flirts with girls, he has his life back
It's seeing this that makes my heart crack
He says we're still friends but it's not the same
I think of this and I feel ashamed
Because I love him more then he knows and more than I should
If I could tell him this I know I would
But I can't or I won't, I won't ruin what we are
As long as he's happy I can watch from afar


This is one of I think 4 poems I would like to deicate to my best friend and ex boyfriend of 3 times, Morgan Elder. I love Morgan with all my heart, he really is my best friend in the world. And even though when I write about him he sounds like the cause of major pain in my life he's not (most the time). This is obviously a break up poem. I do believe, like all my other Morgan poems, that I wrote this while I was pmsing so it is very exagerated. But what I like about it is it touches on things I really did feel. Like the "he looks through me" and "he says we're still friends, but its not the same". Besides the little bit of extre stuff to make it more dramatic though this poem does a good job on explaining how I often feel about Morgan.