Escape

Everyday I wish for life to end
I'm Scared of the hurt people cause me
I Cry frequently in hope it will wash away the day
But All it does though is make things worse
The Pain will come no matter what
There is no Escape



Short, exagerated, but creative.

Chris

He was perfect, more then anyone could ask for
I had no room to complain
He complemented me, held me, wanted me more then anyone else
And in the end this was what scared me away
His passion was so strong
I was unworthy of such love and honestly not ready
I wanted to end it, but how
How do you let go of one so perfect
My friends all questioned why
Yet I had no logical answer, no sensible way to explain my emotions
To be with him was sensational tortue and sorrow filled happiness
My emtions conflicted, so I did what I needed to do
I called him and let him go
To hear the sadness in his voice was beyond my comprehension
Tears flooded my eyes, had I done the right thing
Days of convincing were now being doubted
I hung up the phone but his voice didn't stop
It rang in my head for what seemed like eternity
Finally I pulled myself together
It's over, I told myself I'll be okay but the pain doesn't go away
Now I sit here writing, wondering if I did the right thing
Wondering if I want him back
No, I don't, I can't
We will both move on
It's over



This is the story of my breakup with Chris. The most painful break up I have yet gone through. He was wrapping my Christmas present right before I told him that it was over. I felt like such a bitch. He loved me, a lot, but I just didn't return the feelings. So I think I did the right thing. We still talk from now and then. I even went on a date with him last summer. But like the poem says, that relationship is most defintently over.

Tears

I hate my tears, they make me weak
But it's all I can do when I cannot speak
I cry until my whole body shakes
Until it hurts to breathe and my head starts to ache
The tears fall down and drench my cheeks
My face turns red, I look like a freak
Inside my head my thoughts come fast
They will not let me forget the past
So I lie in bed crying, until sleep takes me
And I pray that tomorrow my tears won't once again break me


Not sure what inspired this poem or what was making me cry at the time but that's ok. I know I must of been crying when I wrote it because it does a very good job of discribing exactly how I look and feel while crying. It's also a fairly desent poem. It's got a couple of those good word choices lines .

Not Good Enough

As I lie here in the shattered remains of my heart,
I realize I was never good enough
Everything we have or had was a lie
I was used by the one person I thought I loved
Why I ever thought he would want me is a mystery
I am nothing but an immature, unintelligent, love sick girl


Short but brilliant. I love every part of this poem because it's exactly how I felt when I wrote it. I didn't try and change it to make it ryhme or anything. Just thoughts on paper in poetry formation. Bet you can't guess who I'm writing about.....

Stress

I wake up late, I look like shit
I try to hurry but my sister's throwing a fit
Finally I leave and I'm in a bad mood
Unfortunately my friend is too
So I'm mad at her and she's mad at me
We barely make the bus and I have to pee
People keep asking me whats wrong
I just tell them the story's long
But really I just don't want to talk
They know I'm lying and eye my like a hawk
First thing I do when I get to school is fail a test
Then I get to watch some girl hug my ex
The stress is building up behind my eys
I want to crawl up some where and die
When I get home I just need to rest
Because the pain moved down to my chest
But then my mom gets home and yells at me
Why won't the world just let me be
At the end of the day I'm ready for bed
For sleep to come and the stress to be shed


This day actuelly happened this summer during summer school. I was so frustrated that day that I came home and wrote a poem about it. This also I think one of my longer poems, the only one that might be longer is "Chris", a poem about a different ex. I think I did pretty well with this one because I'm sure there are a lot of people out there who can relate.

Him

I love him and he loves me
But we both know we cannot be
Our relationships together never last
They come and go all so fast
It's hard to be friends with lust in our eyes
And I know if we act upon it, it will end in lies
Being around him is such a pleasurable pain
I need to leave him before he drives me insane
But I can't let go, I'll never be free
Because my love for him will always be part of me


As promised another poem about missing my beloved ex. You know most normal people write hate poems about their ex boyfriends/girlfriends, but not me. I guess that's because I'm still friends with Morgan (and because I'm unwillingly madly in love with him). Yeah so this poem is much more true about my relationship with Morgan, compared to my last poem about him. I don't like this one so much just because it doesn't flow very well, but that's because I was on my period and trying desperately to make things ryhme. As you've probably noticed I prefer the ryhming style, though I do have I think 5 that don't.

I'm Tired

I close my eyes and it all fades away
I wish that things could stay that way
My waking world is such a mess
I hate it all, I do confess
If I could sleep from now until forever
I would with no second thought whatsoever
I'm tired now from the world as it seems
Don't wake me up, please let me dream


Wrote this poem last night. I wasn't going to post it right away but I didn't feel like putting up another Morgan poem (which is the next one I plan to put up). People who know me probably have noticed that on some days I just have my head down a lot and kinda keep to myself. That's because I'm tired, I'm upset, and I just want things to "fade away". That's the feeling I'm trying to get across in this poem.

The Crash

Average day, average life
I got in the car, I didn't think twice
It happened so sudden, so very fast
I just turned left and then came the crash
The world went black, I could just hear and feel
The sounds, the experience was so surreal
The car stopped, what happened, am I ok
I get out to see the light of day
Everyones fine, but I continued to cry
The guilt consumed me, I wish I had died
Now it is over, yet I can't except what I've done
How could I have been so utterly dumb


I was in a car accident a few weeks back, it was quite possibly one of the scarest things I've been through. I wrote this I think the day after the accident. It's not one of my better poems I don't think, but I bet you anything anyone who has every been in a car accident can relate to it.

Through My Eyes

I see the world through blurred eyes
I cannot stop these tears I cry
My life is pain, lose, and jelousy
Darkness resides in every part of me
I cannot find hope or love
Sadness is the only thing I see much of
People don't understand my loneliness
They can't see my hearts emptiness
So to see the world through my eyes
Is to see it from a darker side


This is another one of my favorites, mainly because of the first two and the last two lines. I really like how those sound. This was originally planed to be my introduction poem but I couldn't fit in the line "Dark emotions are all that's left of you". Now this poem is a very good example of exagerating, but that's because I was trying to get it to invole everything that all my poems talked about because it was supposed to be an introduction poem. My life seriously is not that dark and gloomy. But I do cry a lot and I deffently don't tend to look on the bright side a lot.

Losing Him

I look at him, he looks through me
Why is it that he's all I see
I need to move on, get on with my life
But losing him was like being stabbed with a knife
He flirts with girls, he has his life back
It's seeing this that makes my heart crack
He says we're still friends but it's not the same
I think of this and I feel ashamed
Because I love him more then he knows and more than I should
If I could tell him this I know I would
But I can't or I won't, I won't ruin what we are
As long as he's happy I can watch from afar


This is one of I think 4 poems I would like to deicate to my best friend and ex boyfriend of 3 times, Morgan Elder. I love Morgan with all my heart, he really is my best friend in the world. And even though when I write about him he sounds like the cause of major pain in my life he's not (most the time). This is obviously a break up poem. I do believe, like all my other Morgan poems, that I wrote this while I was pmsing so it is very exagerated. But what I like about it is it touches on things I really did feel. Like the "he looks through me" and "he says we're still friends, but its not the same". Besides the little bit of extre stuff to make it more dramatic though this poem does a good job on explaining how I often feel about Morgan.

Loneliness

Loneliness is a dark rain cloud
That follows above you
That sounds like the foot steps
Of everyone walking away from you
With depressing smell of
dying flowers
And makes you fell like a falling
Glass that no one cares to catch



I wrote this poem in 8th grade for an English project. The assignment was to writing a sence poem, choose a feeling and tell what you think it would look, smell, feel, ect like. I obviously chose loneliness. This is because 8th grade was a time where I felt lonely a lot. I chose to include this poem in my book because I feel like it connects well with my life.