My Drug

Your kiss is poison, your body's a drug
I get high on just our love
Dangerous and forbidden thought it is
I can't help from wanting it
Our bodies coliding, the warmth of your touch
The ecstasy we create, it's all so much
But what will happen when we've both had are fix
Will it really be you I miss
Thus lies the question, is it lust or love
Or is my infatuation an effect of the drug



When I started writing this it was not supposed to have a sexual overtone to it, but after the second line I decided to try something different then my usual sad poetry. This still isn't exactly happy, but it's different from my other stuff.

Ode to a Broken Heart

What love is there like a love not returned
That love that makes your chest burn
You do everything to be the perfect mate
But all you gain is rejection and hate
Constantly being told to just move on
Knowing you can't break that bond
Hoping, wishing you'll be loved back
All the while your heart cracks
So you let the pain seep through you
Because there is nothing else that you can do



I don't know of any one who hasn't gone through this same situation. It sucks, but it happens because no one is perfect. Oh and I'm not sure if this can really be considered an "ode" but I liked the title.

My Secret

Always the right person, never the right time
Love for me is always a crime
I finelly find someone who understands me
Only to find out we cannot be
So I hide my feelings to protect theirs'
Because hurt is not something I wish to share



I wrote this poem a while back and I really liked it, but I was somewhat afraid to post it because I thought it would be quite obvious who I was talking about. Now my guy problems are so messed anyone who can guess who I'm talking about deserves a cookie.

Just a Warning

How dare you try and hurt me, don't you know I could cut you with my words
Your guilt trip never stood a chance, cuz you know I'll make you feel worse
It's not my job to make you happy and it's not my goal to make you sad
But if your gonna mess with how I feel expect me to be mad
I never loved you and I never will
I know my words are cold, but see you live still
So run along and get over me because I'm over you
I don't need your heartach , so don't continue to pursue



I got into a fight today with a friend of mine who has a huge crush on me. The problem is I don't feel the same and he refuses to see that. He makes me feel like it's my responsibilty to keep him happy and I hate that, because when I do anything at all I run the risk of hurting his feelings. So anyways, he'll probably never read this, but if he does I hope he gets the message.

Life and Living

My whole life is just a waste of breathe
My body will serve more purpose after death
I sit here just wasting time
Writing line after stupid line
I take no risks, I live without chance
I live like I'm in some hum drum trance
I long for there to be some meaning in why I'm alive
Why am I here, why should I survive
For I see nothing out there worth living for
So tell me why I should continue living any more



Another suicide threat that I will fail to fall through on. Oh well. This poem came from a revaltion I had yesterday. I have a boring life. Never once have I done anything extremlly dangerous, I never dared to test the limits that my parents have set for me. I am safe and I hate that. But now that I realize it, I can change it. And you can bet your life I will.